Sweet Jane

Yeah, so I have definitely lost track of the days, and I don't find it necessary to keep track of them anymore anyway.

I do basically the same thing every day at the studio.

I have grown to like some of the people there more than others, but that happens no matter where you go. I really love to go into the studio when I know those people are working, it makes the day go by so wonderfully and fast, although when it goes by fast I sort of wish it wouldn't end because I enjoy spending time with those people.

I am learning a little bit more about the planets and how they pertain to my life and the planets of the people around me, and how we all intertwine and what the archetypes say about our relationship. It is very interesting to me since I have alwasy been a big fan of astrology, except I feel like this goes a little bit deeper than that.

I wish I had an endless amount of time and money to spend on various workshops and classes at the studio. But the bottom line is that I don't,a nd it kind of frustrates me when they want me to take certain classes, yet want me to pay for them. It's like, I'm not getting paid to devote what seems like a gigantic part of my life to the center, so how do they expect me to pay for this. I'm here to get the experience, and I wish I could get it more but for free. But then again, nothing in life is for free. But I am thankful for what I have learned and what I have been doing.

I feel good for the most part. I definitely feel like this internship has changed the way I view a lot of things, and in a great way. I am so much more of a postive thinker and a positive person, and I think I see the benefits flowing. Although it is hard to be that way 100% of the time, it is good to know that I can slash my negative thought process in half by what I have learned here.

Something else that is making me feel good is my decision about going to college, or lack thereof. I have decided to put off college for the time being. Although it doesn't seem like the best decision to others, I feel great about it. I feel like it's the best one I have made in a while. I literally saw the sun come out when I decided on waht I was going to do and I literally felt a weight lifted off of my chest. I don't know what a bigger sign from the universe could be than that ACTUAL physical relief.

I am just getting sick of other people (not my parents, bc they support me on this, thank god) telling me that I better watch out for what I do, and that I better not get too carried away with the work world, and I better actually set some time aside to revisit the education scenario. I never said that I didn't WANT to go to college. but with the logistics of everything it's jus tnot going to work out right away. And I do want to get an education no matter what, just not right now. I need to get my ducks in a row before I can committ to that. I'd much rather get my stuff in order than keep trudging on and leading a unsatisfactory life.

I now, more than ever, feel amazing and postive about all of the opportunities and life to come. I am truly excited for what the future holds, even if I'm not 100% positive on what that may be yet.

Award Tour

DAY 19, 20, 21

Honestly there was nothing new and exciting to report on Tuesday, Wednesday or Thursday.

I did the usual cleaning and I helped on his major filing project which seems to just keep growing and growing and getting more and more confusing. I am really starting not to like it.

I ran errands, my favorite one was buying flowers. Since I kind of know what I'm talking about. Except I had no idea we were keeping the old flowers so the ones I bought didn't really match then it looked like I was color blind and had no idea what I was doing.

I did a lot more classes this week. I feel good but sore.

I like the center, and I feel like I pick up a lot of information about Kabbalah and other things just by sitting and talking with everyone who works here. Altho there is part of me that feels like I should be getting more out of this, like more information. Maybe that's my fault and I should be buying books and going to seminars and such. Blah.

DAY 22, 23, 24

This weekend was amazing! On Friday I came down to the center to do a little shopping. Then I walked around soo much. I walked all the way down to the village and back. I was so tired.

On Saturday night, Chrissy and I went to Madame Tussaud's wax museum. That was so ridiculously fun. It was so hilarious and the statues were kind of scary at the same time. They looked so real and it was hard to tell who was a tourist and who was a statue at first haha.

On Sunday Chrissy and I did a little shopping, a lot of walking around in the village and went to a street fair in Soho. That was fun.

DAY 25

I am at work right now. I can't really leave the front desk so I don't feel bad about doing this stuff on here haha. So far I've cleaned (duh). I have a feeling I'll be running errands later, and hopefully I can squeeze in a class. Also Emily and Cindy are working today which is exciting! Fun Fun.

Today is Monday, adn since I was born on a Monday this means that today is my Sunday, whoch is good. So hopefully today will be fabulous.

Ciao.