Sweet Jane

Yeah, so I have definitely lost track of the days, and I don't find it necessary to keep track of them anymore anyway.

I do basically the same thing every day at the studio.

I have grown to like some of the people there more than others, but that happens no matter where you go. I really love to go into the studio when I know those people are working, it makes the day go by so wonderfully and fast, although when it goes by fast I sort of wish it wouldn't end because I enjoy spending time with those people.

I am learning a little bit more about the planets and how they pertain to my life and the planets of the people around me, and how we all intertwine and what the archetypes say about our relationship. It is very interesting to me since I have alwasy been a big fan of astrology, except I feel like this goes a little bit deeper than that.

I wish I had an endless amount of time and money to spend on various workshops and classes at the studio. But the bottom line is that I don't,a nd it kind of frustrates me when they want me to take certain classes, yet want me to pay for them. It's like, I'm not getting paid to devote what seems like a gigantic part of my life to the center, so how do they expect me to pay for this. I'm here to get the experience, and I wish I could get it more but for free. But then again, nothing in life is for free. But I am thankful for what I have learned and what I have been doing.

I feel good for the most part. I definitely feel like this internship has changed the way I view a lot of things, and in a great way. I am so much more of a postive thinker and a positive person, and I think I see the benefits flowing. Although it is hard to be that way 100% of the time, it is good to know that I can slash my negative thought process in half by what I have learned here.

Something else that is making me feel good is my decision about going to college, or lack thereof. I have decided to put off college for the time being. Although it doesn't seem like the best decision to others, I feel great about it. I feel like it's the best one I have made in a while. I literally saw the sun come out when I decided on waht I was going to do and I literally felt a weight lifted off of my chest. I don't know what a bigger sign from the universe could be than that ACTUAL physical relief.

I am just getting sick of other people (not my parents, bc they support me on this, thank god) telling me that I better watch out for what I do, and that I better not get too carried away with the work world, and I better actually set some time aside to revisit the education scenario. I never said that I didn't WANT to go to college. but with the logistics of everything it's jus tnot going to work out right away. And I do want to get an education no matter what, just not right now. I need to get my ducks in a row before I can committ to that. I'd much rather get my stuff in order than keep trudging on and leading a unsatisfactory life.

I now, more than ever, feel amazing and postive about all of the opportunities and life to come. I am truly excited for what the future holds, even if I'm not 100% positive on what that may be yet.

Award Tour

DAY 19, 20, 21

Honestly there was nothing new and exciting to report on Tuesday, Wednesday or Thursday.

I did the usual cleaning and I helped on his major filing project which seems to just keep growing and growing and getting more and more confusing. I am really starting not to like it.

I ran errands, my favorite one was buying flowers. Since I kind of know what I'm talking about. Except I had no idea we were keeping the old flowers so the ones I bought didn't really match then it looked like I was color blind and had no idea what I was doing.

I did a lot more classes this week. I feel good but sore.

I like the center, and I feel like I pick up a lot of information about Kabbalah and other things just by sitting and talking with everyone who works here. Altho there is part of me that feels like I should be getting more out of this, like more information. Maybe that's my fault and I should be buying books and going to seminars and such. Blah.

DAY 22, 23, 24

This weekend was amazing! On Friday I came down to the center to do a little shopping. Then I walked around soo much. I walked all the way down to the village and back. I was so tired.

On Saturday night, Chrissy and I went to Madame Tussaud's wax museum. That was so ridiculously fun. It was so hilarious and the statues were kind of scary at the same time. They looked so real and it was hard to tell who was a tourist and who was a statue at first haha.

On Sunday Chrissy and I did a little shopping, a lot of walking around in the village and went to a street fair in Soho. That was fun.

DAY 25

I am at work right now. I can't really leave the front desk so I don't feel bad about doing this stuff on here haha. So far I've cleaned (duh). I have a feeling I'll be running errands later, and hopefully I can squeeze in a class. Also Emily and Cindy are working today which is exciting! Fun Fun.

Today is Monday, adn since I was born on a Monday this means that today is my Sunday, whoch is good. So hopefully today will be fabulous.

Ciao.

People Under the Stairs

DAY 14

Thursday I was back at work again. My mentor was very understanding about my sickness and so were my other coworkers. They all seem to be having horrible allergies. But Cindy gave me a nice allergy mudra to try so hopefully that will work. She also let me take home 3 cds by Gurunam so that was pretty nice. And they were the ones I really like with the mantras I always find myself saying in my head haha.

But Thursday was a really good day back at work. I was working with Maria, Jules and Maura which is always fun and relaxing. We all get along pretty well. I think we're all cancers! In the morning we cleaned, and then we had a little birthday parties for one of the h.r.a.c. girls. It was really cute. I went out to cvs and got cookies and pretzels haha.

Then later in the day Will asked me to work on this thing upstairs which he described as basic data entry. Sounded easy enough. But the way he explained it didn't really help me ha, not to make excuses. It made sense but after I was done and messed a huge portion of it up I realized the parts he was telling me for what I actually needed to do and what parts he was just telling me as background info. Anyway it was for this Harmonyum workshop theyre doing. It was confusing. I asked for help. Still messed up Twice. I was dissapointed in myself and felt like he would never ask me for my help again.

Anyway. I was glad when he asked me if we could just finish on Monday. I took a class that night with Maria, which was awesome. We listened to good music and I really felt a workout.

DAY 15

Tried to get my stuff together for college this morning. But they are rude. And by the time they called me back I was already around town and didn't have time to talk to them. Oh well.

I walked around a lot. Not anywhere great.. just around central park and times square, which gets really boring after a while. none the less I was entertained and had a good day. Slept well that night.

DAY 16

Hung out with my friend Leigh Anne today! We walked around a lot and had pizza and went to her place in Brooklyn. We watched Sweet Home Alabama haha. And sang Grease songs. Twas Good.

DAY 17

Just laid around. Ate more Pizza. Lazy Sunday

DAY 18

Cleaned at work. Did a little filing.
Felt really depressed and spacey today. I really miss my friends from home. I know theyre all out doing wonderful things and so am I, I just miss them a lot. I miss my mom too. I get really lonely and funky sometimes. It's annoying. Bc I should be enjoying this as much as I can but it's kinda hard sometimes.

oh shweeeeeet shweeeet nufffin

DAY 12

Monday was actually a good day. Cindy wasn't in, which kind of took the pressure off of things. Not that I don't like her, but for some reason I just felt more relazed. It was just Anna, Jules, Emily and I. We were a good little group.

Started the day off by cleaning the studio. We really need to get that Swiffer that's light and easy to take places because right now we are dealing with this huge disgusting thing that I have to lug up from the basement and all over the store. It's really annoying.

Jules and I got a lot done really quickly so we moved to the upstairs office and cleaned there. We really made that place spick and span or whatever that saying is. It was kind of nice to be in a different environment for once.

Spent the rest of the day dealing with customers, helping them sign in and talking to Emily about planets and stuff. I really like her, she is so nice and we get along and work together so well. I could see myself being friends with her if I met her outside of the center too, which I definitely cannot say for everyone.

DAY 13
Tuesday was a wierd, wierd day.

Cindy was back in the office, and I know she was recently sick so maybe that's why she was acting a little bit short and on edge. When we were cleaning the place she was kind of acting like I didn't do things that I was supossed to, even though the things she was telling me to do were the things I do every single day. It was like she kept repeating everything over and over again. I don't know if she thinks I'm not doing a good job at it or something but I honestly think I'm doing a great job and it just makes me think if you want something done "right" then just do it yourself! Esp. if you have that high of standards for something. I don't know it is just really frustrating.

Besides that, everyone was calling out that day so for a while it was just me manning the desk. It wasn't a big deal but it was kind of wierd that everyone that day just didn't come in and that there were so many mix ups.

Some things I did that day were make calls to tell people that Gurunam (the founder of the center) was teaching tomorrow night, because he's not in town every week to teach his class but when he is people want to know and they just flock to the center like crazies. I kind of liked making the calls because it was something to do and after a while I just got really good at it and it was pretty easy. Except for this one mega bitch who had a 917 area code but she kindly told me that she is living in Europe and was going to hang up on me right now, k bye. Haha. Whatever you can't take anything too personally.

I also worked on this sandwich board thing where the upcoming events are. I like doing that because it's just like writing really pretty with big fat colorful paint markers. I like doing that.

Finally I went home after 7pm, because I was waiting for someone to come back after their appointment with Guruam. Ugh. I wouldn't have minded any other night but I had made plans with my friend LeighAnne that night and it was my first time actually hanging out with someone my age!

But we didn't really end up doing anything, she just came over and we hung out for a little. We're going to do something on Saturday but it was nice to see someone.

DAY 13

I didn't go to walkabout today. I have been feeling so congested and sick. My allergies are really acting up and I knew I just could not do it today. I know my body and I don't want to push it at all. It's not worth getting totally sick for a while and not being able to do anything rather than just take care of myself for one day. Oh well.

I tried to get as much stuff done as I could today, like stuff with college and what not but it just ended up being really stressful and I honestly wouldn't doubt if it made me more sick.

Anyway, I really hope tomorrow is a better day. And hopefully the day will go by fast and I'll have a lovely weekend.

Meow Mix, Please Deliever

DAY 7

Wednesday was a pretty good day. I started the morning off how I usually do. Vacuumed, mopped, changed the water for the flowers, got the space ready for class. I was kind of busy just running around cleaning. I also finally finished the filing project that I have been working on for a few days with the help of a coworker named Will, who really helped me finish that fast so I was thankful.

Later in the day I met another karma-yogi, which is kind of like an intern, named Jules. She was really nice and we got along pretty well (she is also a blonde cancer haha) which made the huge filing project we had to work on a lot easier. We had to take the New Client sheets from 2009 and put them away with the rest from 2009. It was pretty easy and I liked doing it, it was just hard to keep track of all of the different papers on the desk since we were organizing it by first name.

Later in the day I met another person who was working named Maura. We had a lot of people working that day but that only made it more fun, it made the day go by so incredibly fast!

I had to go on a Home Depot run later in the day, and I usually don't mind doing this because it is a chance to leave the office for a moment, but as I was leaving Jules and Maura were assigned the absolutely hideous task of putting all the new cute clothes out for spring and steaming them. HELLO, I love clothes and I love to steam, so I was kind of jealous that I didn't get to do that job, but oh well. there is always next time.

Later that night I took a class, and it was really hard. My arms were so sore. I wanted to stick around for the New Moon class but there was no way I felt like being at that center for 12 hours in one day. I need my own time too.

DAY 8

Thursday started off well. I was working with Maria and Jules. We worked ont he computer for a little bit while another group of people from a different company helped clean the space. They apparently come in once a week to help clean and we give them one class whenevr they want to come in and take it. We did a 15 minute little work out with them that day which was a nice midmorning break.

I was running around doing different things all mid morning til about 230 when things were pretty dead and they told me just to walk to the park and get some fresh air. How rude of them! ;)

But I when I came back I had to go to this college called The New School. I had known about this task since last week but I had no idea it would be as horrendous as it was. Honestly, it was not a fun experience, I'm not being sarcastic this time.

I had to go to the school to pick up some equipment. Even when I heard the word equipemnt, I was like "uh, you expect me to go there and get this all by myself?" Like, I am not physically capable of carrying amps, monitors, computers, cd players and video cameras all by myself. They gave me a cart. Like that would help. So at this point I was pretty pissed off that I had to go and get this all by myself, when my mentor said she would come and help me. At the last minute she changed her mind and asked if I could do it by myself. So I decided to look at it in a different light and think oh maybe its not so bad if they think I can do it, so I went and did it. But by the time I got htere there were all of these misunderstandings with the people and even they thought it was crazy that I was going by myself. Like who does that? So I had to end up calling the center and asking someone to come down and help me. But the soonest they could be there was 45 minutes from when I called. So I had to go down and wait in the lobby, where there was no where to sit or anything, so I just stood there for 45 minutes, talking on the phone to various people. I was completely livid. Like seriously, who does that to their little intern? Even if interns have to do some crazy stuff, they should know that I weigh like 90 pounds and can't carry all that stuff by myself. Plus it was completley ignorant and inapropriate to throw the guy who was helping us off scheduele. It was just not his responsibility, it was ours. God.

Anyway, I was just thankful when Cindy finally showed up to help. We got everything in line eventually. I told Cindy about how my parents were coming to visit me later and by the time we got back to the center she let me go early. Thank God.

Later that night my parents came in to town and we went out to dinner. It was pretty disgusting. But oh well. We went to pinkberry afterwards (the most amazing and i mean the most amazing frozen yogurt in the entire world) which made up for everything.

DAY 9

I was so very happy and thankful to have Friday off. My mom and I went down to meet my stepdad at Madison Sq. Park and went to the Shake Shack, which I relly need to stop eating at since I have been there 3 times in one week, sick. But that was nice and I'm glad that they got to experience the famous burger place.

Later we walked around and did a little bit of shopping at Anthropologie, where I saw Nina Garcia from Project Runway! And to Marc Jacobs where I got a couple bags. Fun!

Later we went out to dinner with my aunt, and then came home (in the pouring rain) and watched movies.

DAY 10

My parents and I went out to breakfast at this little diner. It was pretty yummy. Then we did a little grocery shopping. It's wierd going grocery shopping, because there are so many choices. I'm glad I had some people with me because I don't know how I would choose or how long I would be in there for if I didn't have a second opinion. Oh well, I guess that's something I will just have to figure out for myself eventually.

Then my parents went home, which I was kind of sad about because I will really miss my mom. Last week it was different when she left because I knew I would just see her again in a few days. But now I don't know when the next time I will see her will be. Not like it's going to be in a few years or anything dramatic but.. you know.

I spenbt the rest of the day napping, vegging out and watching movies.

DAY 11

Today is Sunday and it is wonderful to just be lazy but I am also getting a few things done, like doing dished, doing laundry, going shopping and organizing my closet. I wonder what else I will do today, it looks nice out!

Well Ciao.

La La Love You

DAY 5

I was so not looking forward to going to work on Monday, Friday was just not a good day at all. I was so tired and exhausted and I was just not getting a good vibe from anyone that day. But I tried to keep telling myself that Monday would be a better and new day. And it was.

I started the morning by vaccuming and mopping the studio and the whole building. I enjoy mopping. I kind of think that I should be a maid. Seriously, I like to clean. Organization, not so much but cleaning yes. Anyway, I did some more laundry that morning as well. I like cleaning, I like to see the end result in something that I am working on.

I did some filing work which was kind of a long term project. I didn;t mind doing this because when I do it is actually a chance to just sit down and concentrate on something instead of running around like a crazy woman. I went out to lunch to subway, haha, and went to the park. It was so nice outside.

When I came back I met this girl named Emily. I really liked her and she was just so nice to me and didn't make me feel under pressure or stressed out that I didn't know what I was doing.

I had to go back to the post office that day, but it was so much less dramatic than last time since I know where I was supossed to go and what I needed to do. I had to mail a package to Canada and get about 10 more envelopes for later use. It was so much better than last time even though the line was still out of the door! Crazy.

By the time I got back it was the end of the day, which was nice. I went home and fell asleep at 9pm! I have never really felt this exhausted in my life but I think I need to take this as it comes and not try to strain my body. If I rest now I will have more energy to do other things later.

DAY 6

Today was Tuesday, which I found out is a "Mars" day. Interesting. Once I find out more about what that means I will definitely share! Haha.

But today was good. The day went by fairly fast. I spent the morning cleaning the bathrooms, which I really got down and dirty and really scrub a dubbed dubbed them. I didn't mind cleaning the bathrooms even though it was kind of sick. It was just something for me to do instead of just wandering around looking foolish. Plus I could see that the bathrooms were cleaner. And it made me feel happy knowing that people could come here and feel clean!

I ended up taking a class today, which felt really good. And it was a nice break from working.

Later I worked on my filing project which took up most of the day. I also went on a staples run, which was not bad at all since it was easy to get to and I got most of the things I needed to.

I spent a lot of the day working on the filing project and talking to Emily. She is really interesting and has a lot of great things to say about the Healing Center and Kabbalah and the planets and so forth.

I also met a lot of new customers today, which made me feel more connected to them and in a way I felt like I knew what I was doing more. Plus, if I mess up a little bit they won't be down my throat because they know I'm new. Not that I think they'd be down my throat anyway. They seem pretty mild.

Well I am happy to be home now! Hope tomorrow is a great day for everyone.

BUSY BIRDS AND BEES

Okay, so I have had the busiest last few days of my life. So I will try to write more regularly as much as I can.

DAY 1
Okay so Thursday was my first official day at Universal Force Healing Center. It's a yoga studio that specializes in Naam Yoga, which is obviously yoga that deals with all the stretching but also focuses on meditation and breathing. But they also have other things like kundalini yoga, massage and kabbalah courses. They also have a lot of great merchandise from cds to clothing to jewelery to food. It's really great and beautiful inside.


The first girl I met that day was Maria, who didn't shake my hand but gave me a big hug instead, which I thought was kind of funny but she is really a nice girl, and she made me feel really welcomed. She showed me the studio and then showed me the office upstairs and I met more of the staff. The office is really the most gorgeous office I have ever seen, it is so peaceful inside.

Later, another woman named Cindy came into work and showed me where everything was and what to do and normal stuff. I was kind of intimidated because it was a lot of information at once and I was just hoping I could retain all of it for future reference.

I ended the day by taking a class with a teacher named Chris who looks just like a character from a Mary Kate and Ashley movie, and that's all I could think about the whole time. It was probably a good thing because that made me feel a lot more at ease with all of the other people who were in the class but have been doing it for years-- it made me feel like less of an outcast beginner. It didn't hurt either that Chris was such a sweet and funny guy.

After the class was over I felt amazing. All that was left to do was help Maria clean the mats and straighten up, which was super easy.

DAY 2
I was really looking forward to going in on Friday because Thursday was such a good day. But for some reason it was not a good day at all. It was really cold and dark outside which I believe put everyone in a funk. One of the girls I worked with was being kind of short all day which kind of pissed me off because it's like HELLO, this is our first day working together at least try to be nice. But I understand working wiith different personalities is part of the deal and learning how to deal with them is important. But I understand everyone has their off days and maybe she was just having one of them that day.

I started the morning off by vacuuming and mopping. Which was nice because it gave me some real work to do and I felt satisfied after the work was done. Later I worked on the computer with another volunteer named Michelle who was super nice and was a breath of fresh air.

After that I did some laundy, and I actually really love doing laundry, I think it is thereputic.

Later I took my lunch break, but I had to go to the post office. I was really nervous that I wouldn't be able to find it because I am horrible with directions. I was actually really freaking out and I called my mom and ugh it was just not a good feeling. But I was so relieved when I finally found it. But once I got inside I was so incredibly stressed out because the line was literally out the door, I felt like I was waiting in line for Splash Mountain at Disney World or something. So I finally got to the front and the guy told me the box I had would be a lot more expensive than the girls at work had thought it would be. So I had to get out of line and go to a different station, buy a new envelope and blah blah blah. Long story short, the post office excursion was so annoying and stressful but the guy was nice to me about it. Ugh.

After I finally got back to the studio I was worried they would be pissed off that I was back so late. But I guess I didn't do too bad of a job because they sent me out again to go to Whole Foods to get cleaning supplies. By the time I got back it was almost the end of the day. I did more laundry.

I wanted to take a class but I realized I was way too exhausted and sore after this week that there was no way I'd make it through a 2 hour class. No way. So I just decided to go home.. that was until Cindy and I started talking and she ended up telling me my planets, which was pretty interesting. She also gave me a book to read, which I need to start that today since she wants me to come in and tell her something about the book (which period I belong in) and that's almost half way through the book. She called it my "litte homework assignment" for the weekend. Sweet.

DAY 3
Saturday was kind of a waste of a day. I slept all day. I needed it though. Then my aunt and I got a pizza and watched movies.

DAY 4
So I have no idea what I am going to do today. I feel like I should go outside and see the light of day since I didn't at all yesterday. Maybe I will get a pedicure.. or start reading that book at the park or something. Who knows!!

It's So Nice, I Want to Hear the Same Song Twice

DAY 59

The last day at the Anthropologie home offices was wonderful. It was a really easy day.

We had a meeting that lasted most of the day, about what the fall concepts should be and look like and such. They are such good ones too, I'm excited to see how everything plays out. The whole group just sat around the table and looked at about 750 pictures that fit into the various fall concepts. It was fun.

We ordered out lunch and I got a hoagie, it was delicious. The group got cannolis for my last day! They were so amazing and delicious I can't even begin to describe them, which kind of made me feel like my cupcakes were circus peanuts in comparison... ew. But the group said it was really sweet and all were gone by the end of the day. I think that's pretty successful.

I really enjoyed my time there.

SPRING BREAK WEEK

I spent spring break back in Ohio. It was soooo unbelievable great to see all of my friends again and even make a lot of new ones! I saw things in a different light for some reason, and everything seemed a lot better. I hung out with my friends every day (obviously) and we went out to parks and went out to eat a lot. We did a lot of fun and relaxing things during the nice weather. It was also nice for everyone to be together again.

I am getting ready to head to New York on Tuesday. FInishing my proposal proves difficult as my "mentor" hasn't really given me much information about it, although I finished everything for it except for one section which I am very proud of accomplishing.

I am really nervous to head up there but I am also beginning to be excited again. I am so happy that I will be in the city during the spring time. It will be great to just walk around and really soak everything up without feeling major discomfort from the weather haha. I really hope I can make some friends too or meet up with other Linworth students who may be in the city. Gosh I am so excited to do all these great things. But it also makes me feel sick to my stomach how much I will miss everything about being home.

I am going to enjoy the rest of this beautiful Sunday.. ciao.

Genius Flamingo

DAY 58

Last day at the store was today! I used to hate going to the store up until about 2 weeks ago. So I was pretty excited to go to the store today and see the girls one last time. But then that quickly faded when I had a pounding headache that lasted me most of the day. It was absolutely horrible. I have never felt a headache so excruciating in my life. Most of the time when I have a headache I rest, but I couldn't today. I wanted to literally just caress my poor head and hold my brain in place as I walked down the street. Ugh.

I started the day off my trimming the giant painted leaves for the interior part of the store. Some of the canvas was looking pretty haggard so we had to fix it. Then cut up long strips of various fabric to be braided and made into curtain ties for one of the home concepts called Pigeon's kitchen. I liked doing this because I had a little bit of freedom as to what fabric I wanted and what I thought looked good and suitable for the concept. And it was also reassuring when Annalily (my Store mentor) told me how good it looked.

Then I finished off the day but trimming more leaves and ironing them. It was extremely difficult to get them ironed, and they never ended up looking unwrinkly actually. So it was aggravating to say the least. I felt like I wasn't getting anything really accomplished. But I kind of didn't care at that point since there was only an hour left of my last day. OH and I was the only one working til 4 that day. I missed my bud. The day went by so slow, but it was that much more relieving when it was over.

I am currently making cupcakes for the visual team for tomorrow! It is my little way of saying thank you. I am so happy I got to do my internship here. Overall, I really do love it and hope to come back one day.

But it is kind of bittersweet because it signifies that I am moving on. Not only moving on to the next walkabout, which I am all of a sudden getting super nervous about and I am realizing how much I am going to miss my mom. Not just because of all of the conveinent things like food and transportation, but I am going to miss her company. Ugh.

And not only is the walkabout in my future, but so is college, which is really stressing me out. I always knew I had expensive taste, but I was hoping that wouldn't transfer over to my college choice. It is super annoying and I am kicking myself for not applying for scholarships earlier. I know how annoying and complicated that makes things better than anyone since I am the one who has to live with the guilt most directly. Jesus. I don't know I guess everything happens for a reason and I will do what I am meant to do. Even if that means choosing a different college (which will most likely be difficult at this point) or working my little patoot off to no end to make things work.

Well I am off to ice my cupcakes, see ya later! ;)

It's coming to an end!

DAY 56

Tuesday was such a busy day at the office, which I guess is a good thing, since I was never bored. Erika came back from London, which was a breath of fresh air. She was assigning me tasks again and being really helpful about whatever I was doing.

I started the morning off by working on the intranet photo site. I just corrected the store names and made sure that everything was in the right district and region. This was very meticulous and took up the majority of the day, but it felt really good to be done with everything. I felt good about sending this off to others in the company.

Later in the day, I worked on separating and organizing giant fabric tags for the bedding concepts in the store. There needed to be 140, but one of the tags ran out, and I only had 101. So I would have to continue next time. It was very easy, I had done this before with different bedding concepts. It was repetitive but it was good because it was in the afternoon, which made everything seem more quiet and peaceful. I knew what I was doing and I was doing it well.

I finished off the day by looking at more inspiration photos for the fall concepts.

DAY 57

Hello Wednesday.

Okay, so remember the huge photo archiving mission I have been doing basically my entire time at the internship, the one I FINALLY finished last week? Well this morning I received about 47 more emails from Erika to store away. Ugh. I didn't mind it before, but it was kind of bothersome today when I thought I was actually done. But I found a new strategy that made it go by a lot quicker, and there were a lot of new images that I had not seen before which made it a little bit better. I did that on and off throughout the day. By the end of the day I only had 17 left, so I did 30 today, which is pretty good!

Today I sent my pictures to Tami for the fall inspiration. I was kind of nervous to see what she would say because I didn't want to be too off concept and it was really hard to find some pictures for one of them. But thankfully she liked them. She told me that I was really on track and I did a great job, but that she doesn't usually use apparel pictures in her home concepts, but they were pretty good so she would forward them on to Erin, who deals more with apparel. It sounds stupid to be excited about that one little tiny thing, but it felt like I was finally doing level work. Then she actually gave me two more concepts I could work on for her, which was pretty cool because I felt like I did the first job well enough that she trusted me with this.

I went out to lunch today with the girls and it was really nice, they treated me and it was fun to hang out with all of them in a more relaxed environment (AND it was so delicious). I am actually going to miss everyone. Hopefully I will be back for another internship and possibly a job.

Later in the day I finished working on the bed tags and eventually the day came to a close.

It is weird to think that this is actually one of my last weeks here. I don't think of it that way because my parents live here but after this week I am going to Ohio, then I will spend one night back here, and then after that one day I am heading up to New York til May!! Craziness.

You'll Find A Way

DAY 54

Sunday was another beautiful day in Philadelphia. My parents and I spent the day walking around down town and went out to lunch. Then we got water ice. It was nice.

Then I spent the rest of the day organizing and cleaning. I did all of my laundry and straightened up my room. It sounds simple, but I just feel so much better when things are clean in my room. I feel like I can actually focus and get some things done. I never used to feel like that before before this year. But it works for me.

So yes, I've been getting my clothes together for my trip back to Ohio. I am ambitiously trying to fit everything I need for a week into a sweet backpack I got at the sample sale. I really need to stop overpacking, it is such a hassle and definitely not worth the haul or chaos at the airport.

But so far I think I am doing well, I think I can do it!!

DAY 55

Today is so dreary and glum outside. I wish I could go outside and do something, and really try to enjoy the city before I leave next week. It is crazy that there is only one week left of the first walkabout. I think that everyone is really feeling sentimental towards what they are doing/where they are at this point. I mean, I know I'll be back here, but still it is kind of strange that what seemed like forever away is here already.

Although, I am much more excited to go back to Columbus to see my friends. I think that's why I've kind of fell into a bad mood streak lately. Not that I've been acting out (I don't think so anyway), but I just haven't really felt 100% like myself. I need some friendly interaction!! It is going to be so much fun and so good to see everyone again.

It's really strange to think where my friends and I all were a year ago today, and think about where we are now. We were so different, but I still feel like I can learn from who I was a year ago. I haven't changed TOTALLY, but the way I thought was sometimes better and more optimistic than it is today. I still felt like I had a lot in front of me, and for some reason I feel like I don't now. Even though I have the whole entire world and the rest of my life in front of me. I guess I'm just feeling weird about leaving high school and all the people I know.

Animal

DAY 51

Wow, Thursday was such an awesome day! I woke up pretty early to get ready to go to the sample sale. The sample sale, is well, a sale of clothes that are all samples. It was everything you can fit into a bag for 50 dollars! I bought 2 bags of course. You would be surprised how much you could fit into a bag.

It was a little bit crazy. There was this huge line just waiting to get in. Once they opened the gates to start shopping, people literally started to run. Like seriously, is that necessary? But it was kind of intimidating, kind of like the movie 300. But I ended up getting a lot of awesome stuff, seriously SO SO many clothes! I was dying. I had a nice little clothing high for the rest of the day.

After that, I took the train to the store. And the store wasn't bad at all this day. The girl who I really didn't like before is actually turning into a fun person to work with. We just laughed and joked around the whole day, which made the work go by so much faster.

We are in the process of working on a huge exterior display of tropical looking leaves. Some are wooden and some are fabric. Well, the fabric ones need some structure to stand up, so our job was to wire about 100 gigantic canvas leaves. We did this all day. The leaves were already sewn with a a little hole to get the wire in and lining the perimeters. To be honest, I was really annoyed at first. This job was SO tedious. And I knew that we would be doing this ALL day. But that feeling only lasted for a couple minutes and it turned out to be kind of fun and definitely not as hard as I thought it would be. It's also nice to come up with creative ways to get things done, and then you think wow, that was a pretty easy/neat way and I came up with it. Haha.

DAY 52

Friday was such a beautiful day outside! It should have been a really wonderful day - nice weather, free lunch at the navy yard, I was looking fly in my new garb, but it wasn't.

For some reason I was in such a terrible mood, like all day. I think it was because I was talking to a friend who is still in Columbus and a wave of different emotions came over me. Like, I was super pissed at one point that I wasn't still there, enjoying my friends company and seeing all of the people at school every week at seminar like a lot of other people get to do. Then I would feel really triumphant that I was somewhere far away doing something awesome every single day. But at the same time, I didn't have any friends to celebrate that with. I don't know, I just felt odd and irrational all day. I was also pretty resentful and bitter towards certain people I left behind.

But my mom and I went to the park after work, which made me feel a little better about things. Life is life, and this is one of many times I'll feel discomfort but it doesn't last forever.

Anyway, at work that day I was doing the same thing over and over again. I scanned about 200 pictures of store front windows. They are like blue prints that the visual team likes to have so they can map out the different concepts for each season and send them to stores so the stores have a little guide of what to put in their window. It got kind of old, but I had a chance to do other things in between the scanning.

The other thing that I was doing was looking up pictures for the Fall Inspiration. It was amazing, I can't believe that this was my assignment. It was basically looking up things on the internet like blogs and other things like magazines and finding images that represent the concepts. It was awesome and I think that this is something that I am very good at. So it felt good to know what I'm doing and being confident that it was the right thing.

I am really enjoying walkabout!

DAY 53

Saturday my parents and I went to the zoo. It was lovely.

Then we went shopping.

Then we had a good dinner.

Not a shabby Saturday!! :)

sunshine on my window makes me happy

Okay, so I just wrote this huge thing, for two days. Then I accidentally pressed a key or something and it is all gone. SWEET. I loathe PC's.

Anyway...

DAY 49

Tuesday was back at the office. I spent the beginning of the day working with this huge shelf of magazines. They were all out of order and needed to be put back in order. I actually didn't mind doing this at all. It was sort of fun. I like re arranging things and putting them in their correct place. I feel so accomplished after. The visual team keeps the magazines for a variety of reasons, but usually for inspiration and such. It was also really neat to see a lot of magazines I had never even heard of (can you imagine that?).

I finished up the day by working on the photo archiving. It's crazy how much worked it looked like when I first started, and now I am nearly finished. I am actually quite proud of myself, because I work really hard and get things accomplished quickly. I think it surprises the rest of the team, but it surprises me that they aren't used to people working like that. Then again, I am only an intern and probably don't have the work load that they do.

DAY 50

Happy St. Patrick's Day! I am writing this at the office right now, since I finally finished all of the photo archiving! Yay!

I think I am about to go to lunch with two of my coworkers... even tho I packed my lunch haha. Oh well, my mom owe's me $15, so I think I might get some delicious sushi again... ha, my thought process is a strange one I know.

I'm not sure what I will be doing now that I am done with the photo archiving. Hopefully something not too physical since I am wearing a super short dress, that looked really good last night, but it looked really hookerish this morning (in fact, I was so embarassed to even get up to put my lunch in the fridge that I had to call my mom to bring me some tights, HAHA). Also, I am wearing heels for the first time to the office. Can you believe that? I used to wear crazy heels all the time to school and not even think twice about it. Now there is only two weeks left til I'm done with Walkabout, and just now I am wearing them. Part of it was that I didn't know what kind of work I would be doing, and then I got kind of nervous that everyone would be like "aww, does someone feel like a grown up, wearing big girl shoes to work.." Haha, now I realize that is totally irrational. And it really doesn't even matter what people think. You should SEE what some people wear here.

Anyway, I am off to enjoy the rest of my day.

Ciao!

Whole Lotta Love

Hello, I'm back. Sorry I am so terrible with keeping up with this blog!

DAY 44

Thursday I was absolutely dreading going to the store. I just hate the way that people there treat me so differently than people at the home office. I don't know, they just always seem miserable and not very sweet. I don't need someone to be upbeat 24/7, but come on, you are living another day, how bad can that be?

Well the store actually wasn't bad. The people were being nice and sun shiney for once. Maybe they were working on a difficult project or something when I met them before. But since I am the oh so mature one here, I will give them the benefit of the doubt. ;) The one girl who I absolutely did not like kind of came out of her shell today. We got to talking and we had a lot more in common than I thought we would, and she's actually kind of funny!

It didn't hurt that the things I was doing this day weren't too bad. I started off the day by cutting giant pieces of fabric in the shape of leaves. We are doing a huge display on the exterior of the building (which is kind of a risky move) but I have a feeling it will be so grand and so worth it. It is basically just a lot of gigantic leaves towering over the windows and entry way. Next I put the leave shapes together so they could be sewn. This took up the majority of my morning, but I didn't mind. I love to work with fabric and canvas. They are so unique together.

Meanwhile, Annalily was cutting out large leaves out of wood. I helped her sand them down. There were sooo many. But for some reason, working with the wood was oddly satisfying.

Next I went to lunch and sat in the park. It wasn't very warm or sunny outside but for some reason it felt really good to be outside. I saw a lot of people and a lot of dogs. I just sat there for the whole hour, and enjoyed myself and fresh air. I was probably choking on all the dust from all the sanding.

When I got back I finished up the sanding and moved on to the painting of the leaves. We painted them 3 different shades of green. I loved doing this. For some reason, I love to paint. Not really like a beautiful portrait of something, but just slab it on and spread it around. Haha, again, it felt satisfying, like "Ahh, this is now complete and smooth". I don't know maybe I'm strange. Then before I knew it, it was the end of the day!

DAY 45

On Friday, the entire visual department was out of the office, so I worked with the art department instead. I helped them set up all of the invitations for a big upcoming event. Then I helped with their big re organization project. It was so easy, and I felt so helpful. I've been helping the visual department with the organization of the rolling racks lately, so it was really easy to find where to put things and how they could be moved so we could have more room for other things. HA I think I should work at the Container Store instead!

It was really amazing working with the art department. I got to see all of their past projects, some which were entered into competitions and were featured in magazines and newspapers, and they are so unbelievably creative. I really don't know how they come up with such cute and interesting things, and how they end up topping it every year. I saw a lot of invitations that they did for Anthro events, and it is insane to think how they come up with things. But it's no wonder Anthro is on top of it's game in the retail world either.

I ended up getting off early that day, since we completed everything fairly quickly, which was nice.

DAY 46

Saturday was no day for me to sleep in! Although I wish it was, I felt like this week had gone by sooo slow. I was so sore all week, ugh. But anyway, I ran some errands with my parents, then we went to my aunt's surprise 30th birthday party. That was fun, and nice to see all of my family members. And the food was yummy too! I spent the rest of the day with the rest of my aunts, and cousins and friends, which was a lot of fun. I love spending time with them. You would think that I would see them more now that I live here, but unfortunately it is not as much as I'd like it to be!

DAY 47

I ended up sleeping over my aunt's that night, with another aunt of mine. Ha, that was a fun and funny time.

I took the train home, which was again, nothing compared to NYC transit, which I am dreading by the way. My parents and I went out to lunch, which was really delicious! Mm, I love food. But besides that, Sunday was my first lazy day in a while, and totally needed.

DAY 48

Today we went to Manayunk to shop at this little Tibetan store. I have been begging my mom to take me for the longest time. I love all of the clothes and jewelry there, and I really wanted to go before I went to NYC. WELL, of course it would be my luck that it was closed. :( I was very upset. But we made up for it by grabbing some pizza (haha food always makes me feel better, are you noticing a trend here?) and going to a different but similar oriental type shop. I got the cutest little butterfly ring!

Today made me realize that I do not have that much money left and I have no job. I am about to be living in the most expensive city ever, and I am kind of freaking out. I have such a bad habit of spending, and that really needs to stop. But the thing is, I haven't gotten any new clothes since Christmas!! And it is about to be spring, so I'd like a little revival.

Also, I emailed the woman at Universal Force Healing Center, but she still hasn't gotten back to me, so I'm not sure if I even have a second walkabout going on at the moment or what I should wear or buy to work there. UGH STRESS!!! I know I will get through it one step at a time but it really bothers me that I have no idea what is going on.

Hopefully I will figure out more this week. Also, I am going back to Ohio in two weeks and I am SO SO SO excited!

keep on keepin' on

hola!

DAY 42
Tuesday was a quiet day at the office. I did photo archiving all day. It got pretty repetitive after a while, but I really ended up making a huge dent in the work load. I was also super tired and extremely sore from walking around New York so much the past weekend, so I was happy that I didn't have to do much physical work, haha. Honestly, I have never felt that sore in my entire life!

When I got home I did some yoga, meditation, and abdominal work outs haha, they are my favorite for some reason. It just feels so good, like I just want to keep doing more and more. I'm not like that with all working out, just yoga and sit ups for some reason. But it makes me feel buzzed and happy.

I have been having kind of a difficult time thinking about what I want to for my second walkabout. I was supposed to do the second one at a magazine, but it looks like that may not work out. Honestly, that is fine with me if it doesn't work out since I have another one at a yoga studio in the works. Yes, I would love to do something in the creative field; it would really help further my career in the fashion field. However, I know I will be doing a lot of internships like that in the future since I have been admitted to the fashion program at Philadelphia University, so I think a lot of work similar to that will come my way. I don't know when the next chance will come for me to work at a cool yoga place and get a chance to get to really know myself and calm dow a bit.

I don't know... it's just so hard to decide and I feel guilty for making Jen and the others wait.


DAY 43

Today was kind of irritating. The dynamic between me and one of my coworkers has changed since the beginning. It has only felt this way since last week. I don't know what it is, I am just getting the vibe that she is talking down to me a lot, or acting like I am dumb. She's not really mean at all, I just feel like she acts like I can't do anything. Or she forgets certain things, then remembers, and then acts like it was my fault that something didn't get done when SHE is the one who told me not to do it. I don't know, it's just very frustrating. I am trying so hard to keep a positive attitude at all times at work. I am trying so hard to tell myself that "maybe she doesn't mean it like that" and I try to take what she says in a positive tone, like she is trying REALLY hard to help me. But it still doesn't help too much. My intuition is stronger, and I feel like she is getting tired of me or something.

I don't really do much when I get back from walkabout. I'm such a loser. I try to work out and meditate a little bit. I have been eating healthier lately and drinking 8 glasses of water a day! I am actually trying really hard to get my health on track. Not necessarily a diet, but just doing things that are better for my body. It feels good so far.

Anyway, I am quite tired. Goodnight! :)

no sleep til brooklyn

DAY 36

Wednesday was another day at the office. For some reason this week at the office was just not fairing too well for me. I always look forward to coming into the office because it is so warm and sunny, not just the office physically, but the people are kind of the same; always pretty cheery and helpful. I just have a feeling that everyone was on edge this week and had to get a lot done, so they weren't like the people I had come to know.

I have just been working on the same photo archiving project. I thought it would get kind of old, but honestly, I really don't mind doing it because I get to look at gorgeous pictures all day. I also get to see how some of these things are done in the store that I have always found myself wondering how they were made. It really gives me a boost of creativity and a plethora of new ideas. Everything done with Anthropolgie is just so creative in every way. They always go the extra mile.

DAY 37

Thursdays are days at the store. This was the first time that I took the train/subway system in Philadelphia by myself! I was kind of nervous at first, but my mom reminded me that this is what I wanted, to be independent. And it's true, but I guess everything for the first time can be nerve racking. Besides, Philadelphia public transportation is nothing compared to NYC public transportation... which I will get to in a little bit.

So my train ride wasn't bad at all. I got to the store right on time and went right back to collaging. I thought that it would be really, really fun, because hey a whole day of collaging does not sound bad at all, but I did find myself getting really bored of it after 7 hours. I also felt sort of guilty that there was other harder work being done that day by other people but I was just leisurely cutting out pictures. So I finally asked my mentor type girl at the store, Annalily, if I should help out but she reassured me that this job had to be done just like all the others did. I felt better about that because I wasn't just doing busy work.

DAY 38

Friday!! TGIF, FOR REAL!!

Today I was back at the store, but I didn't work on the archiving of the photos too much. Although I'm not totally bored with doing that, it was a nice break to concentrate on something else. What I did instead was work on this big reorganization project. There are these HUGE shelves called rolling racks which the different departments keep their supplies on. Well the visual team practically has the whole rolling rack on one end of the building (I think the art department has 2 shelves out of like 10 columns, haha). Well some supplies are still in cardboard boxes and the others are neatly in clear bins. Some don;t have labels and some do. So it was my job to reorganize, find out which bins needed labels, needed to be relocated, and which things needed to be moved out of their boxes into clear bins. I thought it would be a huge pain in the ass at first, but it was actually kind of fun as the day went on. I liked figuring what was where and I liked getting a sense of what the department has. Also, we needed more bins so Katie and I went to Ikea to go get more.

It was really interesting to see and interact with someone outside of the office. Not that we acted too differently than we normally do, but it was quite different. We went to this big fabric place called Jomar too. That place was sort of janky and strange, but it has soooo much fabric. So we got some things for the opening of the Chelsea store in Manhattan. I'm loving being apart of the team and being apart of this whole planning part. I like to see what is going on with new stores and in the company as a whole.

I was so excited it was friday today because I was very much looking forward to visiting Brendan Box in Brooklyn! Wow! It had been so long since I last saw him in person. But at the same time, I felt like I still knew what was going on his life a lot that we didn't have to rehash everything that has happened since January when we finally met up.

Brendan met me at the train station with his friend LeighAnn, who is so nice and sweet, and staying in New York until next year, so hopefully I will have a friend when I come back! We walked around for a little bit and Brendan showed me around Brooklyn around where he lived. I liked being introduced to all of his loftstel friends. It is so crazy to see where all these people come from and what they're doing now! I think it's great the Brendan is staying there because it such a good way to meet new friends and to meet new personalities and learn so many different things.

Brendan took me back to my aunt's house in Manhattan later that night, which was so nice of him. I really can't thank him enough for being so helpful and accommodating this weekend!

DAY 39

On Saturday I was so tired and sore from running around the day before, but I still got up bright and early to head back to Brooklkyn to see Brendan. We went to this AMAZING bagel place for breakfast (it is very true that NY bagels are so much better than anywhere else). Then we went back to his loftstel and hung out on his balcony, it was such a beautiful weekend!

Then I met up with my other aunt and my grandmother and cousin. We went out to lunch and shopped til we dropped (which I ended up dropping way before them)! I was happy to get back to my aunt's place so I could take a nice nap. :)

My aunt and I just ended up going out to a late dinner and walking around the city that night.

DAY 40

Brendan and LeighAnn came over to my aunt's in Manhattan and dropped off my backpack which I had left there like the whole weekend unfortunately, which makes me kind of wonder why I even packed at all haha. Oh well. But that was incredibly nice of them to make the trip over, I'm glad I have such sweet and helpful friends. I hope I can learn the ropes of NYC transit quickly so I don't have to stick in one place for too long or end up getting lost all the time haha.

Then we walked around the west side and went to Central Park for HOURS! But it was really fun because it was so unbelievably nice outside! We saw this huge Alice in Wonderland statue and went up on the roof of Belvedere Castle in Central Park. It was really great.

Then later I made the trip back home. I was happy to sleep in my own comfy bed, and man was I so sore! Good thing I have off on Mondays!

DAY 41

Ah Monday, my day of rest. I am so glad I have today off because I feel so weak and lazy. But the weekend was definitely well worth the pain, ha!

I am really happy I got to see one of my closest friends, and I'm glad that we can still be great friends no matter where we live. It also really makes me want to see my other friends in Ohio more. But I've realized who my good friends are, and who I want to keep around for a while. It is a two way street with communicating, and the people who I have been in contact with the most are definitely the ones who I'd like to be in contact with for a while.

I've also learned that I'm not sure if the city is for me. I am probably going to regret saying that once I move there, but this weekend made me realize some things about myself. While it will get better once I move there, I am so terrible with directions right now that it makes me worry how I will be when I am actually independent in nyc. I know I have always, always, always wanted to live in the city, like since I was four, something inside of me thinks that I would be better suited for somehwere more relaxed and calming. Like California... on the beach... haha, well I'm sure a lot of people think that about themselves. But again, who knows I could totally be back on the city track once I've been up there for a few weeks.

It is crazy how time has gone by so fast.

Ch Ch Changes!

DAY 34

I really love Monday's off. It is so nice to be able to wake up lazily whenever I want and not have to dread getting ready in the morning and then feeling like crap all day. I don't know, Mondays and I never meshed. I also like going to work starting on Tuesdays because I miss the people who feel the same way about Mondays as I do, so they don't bring me down either!

Monday was a nice catch up day. I went grocery shopping with my mom. It was nice to be able to spend some time with her, and I don't mind grocery shopping. I don't think I've ever seen so much produce in our cart before! Seriously, it was half filled up with fruits and vegetables. I love it though, I am trying to eat healthier and I think it will just be a lot easier now that we are more settled into our house and things don't always have to be so on the go or trying to cook something healthy/complex at someone else's house-- that is always a pain.

I finally got my room all set up and decorated the way I like it. I love decorating my room. It's so nice to just have a blank slate to work with. It's also nice that I have gotten rid of a lot of useless things over the past couple times we have moved. I used to be such a pack rat, but it feels really cleansing to leave behind a lot of that junk I never used to be out of my life. I see a nice new phase happening; just trying to be more clear and concise with my life, and focusing on the things that really matter, which really arent material things at all.

It's a little bit hard to cope sometimes though. I really, really miss my friends. I know I keep on mentioning this, but I think it's something good to know: I used to think I liked to be alone a lot, but now I realize I love my friends and family and I hate being away from them. I just don't even feel like myself anymore. I haven't really felt like myself in a long time. I feel like I never really have the time to decompress or just relax and laugh like I used to. Things are moving so quickly in my life right now that I'd actually like to sit down and just take the precious time to reflect, as corny as that sounds. It;s weird, because I feel like I had more of that time even when I had 3 college comp papers due, a part time job, a full time boyfriend, and a full time load of broad stress. Ugh.

DAY 35

This Tuesday really felt like a Monday. For some reason I had the feeling that everyone was in a bad mood and they were all being kind of short. They weren't being mean at all, just very different from their normally peppy selves.

We are starting on this really new big project. It is part of the photo archiving mission. Anthro wants to keep pictures of the past displays that they have done for past concepts in different seasons for future reference. Right now they are keeping the photos on a third party picture website, which isn't beneficial to the company in any way. So they are starting to move ALL of the pictures from the website to their own system, so the pictures go from being on the internet to the intranet. It will be easier for the stores to access and upload photos this way, and no one else who isn;t in the company or has no business seeing these pictures cannot see them. It will be a much easier system once it is all set up, but the setting up part is where it gets tricky and it is also where I come in! Haha.

It was kind of hard to follow the directions of how to actually do this. We are suppossed to create a family tree type of system of folders for the region, district and stores. It was hard for me because I really am not good with computers. esp. PC's. I mean I'm not an old lady, but I'm really not too familiar with all the things on a PC or how to navigate this new program. It was also difficult because my mentors were referencing all of these people I had never heard of and their title's which I had no idea what they were. Ugh. It was just kind of hard to keep up, and I felt bad asking so many questions on top of their already bad mood.

Overall, it was just an uncomfortable day. No one seemed to be in a good mood, which makes everything harder. I don't see how anyone could really act like that when the place they work is so unbelievably amazing. Yet again, everyone is entitled to their bad days. I know that better than anyone.

I am so excited to say that I am going up to Brooklyn to visit Brendan this weekend! It will be so good to see one of my best friends again. It will be really fun to see the city and where he is living too. I also get to see my aunts! Woo! Too bad it's only for a few days.

I really want to start doing yoga again. I have worked in a couple sun salutations lately, but I want continue like how I used to. It was easier when I had a set time to do it, and it was for a class. But I felt so good when I did yoga. I always went from groggy to flexible and easy going. I miss that feeling. I miss feeling that kind of endorphin-y good!

Well I think I will start that tonight, and maybe do some meditation before I go to sleep! Now that I think about it, it;s incredible that the absolute best times of my life were when I was doing yoga and meditating everyday. Honestly, it really works. Hopefully I will have a revival of those awesome feelings and outcomes again.

Sunday Morning

DAY 30

Wow it feel so weird writing day 30! I can't believe we have all been at our walkabouts for 30 days already. It's insane!!

Anyway, Thursday was just another day at the office, working on the book again. This day I was told to go to another building and collect about 2,000 sheets of paper from the new printer. I didn't really have a problem with the task until everyone at the building came to get what they just printed and I had to tell them I was doing "a big job, it will probably take a while". I just felt bad telling them that when they had a lot of important things to print too. It's not really a big deal, but I kind of wonder about the judgement about the people in my department haha. I mean, if you're going to print something this big for a project this big, wouldn't it be best to do it at an earlier and more quiet time, where we wouldn't be so in the way? I don't know, I guess this was just one of the first things that kind of irked me while on the job.

DAY 31

TGIF!! While I was thrilled to not have to go into the store this week, it was still a long and tiresome week. I did a lot of running around and work. Although, I did get to have a nice relaxing lunch with Rob and I got out of work early! I got out because it was supposed to snow really horribly, but by the time I walked out of the office, it was bright and sunny. Again, with this judgement thing, but I guess they didn't know any better.

I really liked coming home early. It was just a chance to take a second and unwind a little bit, instead of coming home and being so immediately tired and going through the same routine of eat, shower, sleep. It's also nice living much closer to work, so the commute isn't an hour and a half. It's nice being able to sleep in!! Ahh.

DAY 32

Saturday we went shopping for the house a little bit, then went back to my grandparents house to get the rest of my things. It was nice seeing them after a few days, because I didn't feel so tired and annoyed whenever I saw them haha. I could actually enjoy a conversation, not just trying to get through it so I could go to bed.

It was also very nice to have all of my things again! I love just rearranging and decorating and it definitely helps when all of my things are all together. I tried to put everything away, but we got home so late that I was just too tired to finish (notice a recurring theme in my life?), which really bugged me, because I wanted my room to look spectacular once I had everything. I guess I'll just have to take time to make everything look right and in it's place.

DAY 33

Today I have just gotten back to the big project that is my room. I have definitely made some progress, which calms me down a little bit more, I'm not so agitated that I have a bunch of crap everywhere and I'm too overwhelmed that I don't know where to start. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel!

We are about to go on the train and do a trial run, so I can navigate the city myself for when I have to go to the store. Ugh. I really do not want to go, it is just a pain esp. when I am trying to get my room all straightened out. But I suppose I still have tomorrow to do it and I have to get used to taking the train. I feel a little bit guilty that I have been relying so heavily on my parents when everyone else has been on their own and has had to figure everything out for themselves. But now that I think about it, a lot of people still live with their parents and they still help their children with everything, so now I don't feel like such a slacker! Haha.

I also started to look at apartments on Craigslist for college. I don't know if it's too early but I guess it doesn't hurt to give it a look. I am so excited for the future, but I'm so antsy to find out if everything will work out like I hope it does. I really hope that me and Phoebe could get a place together, not just because it would be tons of fun, but because room and board is SOOOO expensive at Phila U. People like my relatives are always asking me about college and stuff and they are shocked to hear the prices are so high these days. Why can't it just be like 1985 again, and have things be really cheap haha.

Well here is hoping today goes smoothly!

CIAO

Goodbye Blue Sky

Ello!


DAY 27
Monday I had off! Yay!
My mom and I went to the house and moved more stuff in and ran some errands. That was pretty tiring, but at the same time I am ready to just have all my stuff back in the same place again and just sit down and take the time to organize and decorate. It's weird to think that I'll only be here for another couple weeks though, then I'm off to New York City!

Ugh, Monday was weird. It really dawned on me that my friends and I are all doing the same thing right now yet we're all different places in our lives. I really miss seeing my friends every day, and having something to do on the weekends. Although it is definitely more than just having a good time, I miss having someone who I can really trust and who I really admire with me.

Although today I did decide that I want to go to Philadelphia University! It feels good to finally have some inkling of what I want to do after high school. It's also the option that makes the most sense; I got into their fashion program, which is very good, and I don't really see myself straying from the field too much.

DAY 28
Back to the office! I just made some more inspiration books and canvas covers for the books. And also archived photos. It sounds boring on paper, but I actually have a lot of fun doing it. I get to see beautiful images everywhere I look, so while the task might seem dull, I am hardly ever bored. Also, when I bone folded the papers for the book, it was oddly entertaining and extremely satisfying. My hand was pretty sore by the end of the day but bone folding those papers is addicting!!


DAY29

Today I did pretty much what I did yesterday. The book project is huge this week. It's so big in fact that I don't have to go to the store this week (which I'm pretty relieved about). Today was probably the first time that I got to talk to my coworkers more and learn more about them. It was interesting! My mentor is actually working her way through Buffy the Vampire Slayer series (which I love, and I did the same thing last year too!) So that was pretty funny. It's cool to hear where they grew up, and where they went to college and what their hobbies are.

Right now I am at the new house. It is much smaller than the original small I had in my mind haha. But that's okay. I still have a lot of things at my grandparent's house that I wish I had with me right now-- like lots and lots of clothes and some books. I'm just so antsy to organize this gigantic closet and bookshelf I have in my room! So much possibility haha.


I have been thinking so much about the future lately! I have a lot of important decisions to make! But I feel like I have done the best that I can, and I am in a good place right now. Maybe not so much emotionally, because I miss my friends, but literally. If I want to go to school for fashion then I am at a great and coveted company-IN HIGH SCHOOL! It's pretty mind boggling. It's also SOOOO exciting to think that Phoebe might be going to college in the city too! We have been talking about maybe getting a place together next school year! Oh it tickles me with excitement just thinking about that hahah.

I've been thinking about things in the not so distant future too, like going to New York and Graduation and the summer and my birthday! It's so crazy.

Well I am off. Ta Ta!

We Took This Trip to Garden Grove...

HI! I actually have an excuse this time, I have been super busy with moving that I haven't really had much of chance to write my blog every single day! I will get better with this soon, I promise!

DAY 23

Thursday was my second day at the store. Thursday was definitely a lot better than Wednesday! I met a new girl named Brittany, who actually reminded me a lot of one my best friends with the same name, ha! She was really nice and funny, and she gave my my job for the day which was to make collages for the different concepts for spring. CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT?! Making collages is my jam, like I could do that for the rest of my life. I love doing those. So, that was really fun, and took all day. I just couldn't believe I got to do that! It was so much fun. I met up with my mom for lunch and then we walked around and went to Barnes and Noble. That was fun, and I liked seeing someone I actually like during my break haha.

Later on Thursday, I went to the movies with my friend, and we saw The Wolfman. Hahahah, that movie was such a comedy, even though it wasn't supossed to be. Oh well, at least the company was good! I was so thrilled to finally hang out with someone my age! And do something outside of working and going home! I live such an amazing, crazy lifestyle, I know. Haha, yeah right.

DAY 24

Friday was back at the office! This day was really a lot of fun. We had an all day meeting which was about the holiday inspiration, basically what Anthropologie is going to do for their winter display's and such. It is so absolutely amazing that people come up with this sort of thing basically a year ahead of time. I love working with these people, just everything about it is so comforting yet refreshing at the same time if that makes sense. Just the way the dress and the way they talk and communicate with each other is creative. I also found out that day that they knew my aunt from when she used to work there! Haha, I am sooooo an automatic in! ;)

After that, Rob and I visited my mom at the new house. We stayed there to help clean and prepare for moving day a little bit. Then we ran a few errands. Finally we got home around 9pm. This week has been the most tiring of my life I feel like! Getting up at 5am and not getting home until at least 7 is so draining! I will be so happy when we are finally settled in our new house and I won't have to get up at some ungodly hour every day.

DAY 25

This day was moving day! We had a lot of help from family and friends so I felt like it went by really fast! Although, I was so exhausted, I actually took a nap on the floor... ew. But I really like this house. It is cute and in a good location for where Walkabout is.

Later this night we went out for sushi at my favorite place, Ooka! It was a nice time, and it was soooooo yummy. I probably would have enjoyed it a little bit more if I wasn't so tired.

DAY 26

Today we went back to the house to bring some last things. I am pretty antsy to get my room all set up so I can get cozy! I love decorating my room and now I feel like I have a fresh palate. Hopefully I will meet some new friends where we will be living.

I have been thinking about it every day, but I am starting to lean towards Philadelphia University as my college of choice. I like the fashion program a lot, and I think that my two walkabouts will really help me in the field. But there are just some other things that I am still wishy-washy about. SO HARD! Well time will tell.

I hope everyone has a fantastic Sunday evening!