DAY 13
I got out of the house this day to see my friend. That was nice. I was really excited when I woke up in the morning, knowing that tomorrow was the big day. Although I kept getting more and more surprisingly nervous. Like sick to my stomach nervous. I could not sleep at all that night. I think I got 4 hours of sleep. I was just so nervous, I don't know why, it was like my first day of school all over again or something.
DAY 14
Ah, the first day at Anthropologie!
I got up around 6am, when I fell asleep at 2. That was a blast, let me tell you. Then Rob and I made the long trek to Philadelphia. I think it took about an hour and a half to two hours to get there. Annoying. But it was okay.
We actually got to the building early (for me anyway), at around 8:30am. I wasn't suppossed to meet with someone til 9. So, I waited around with Rob for a little bit. Then at 9, I went down to the lobby to wait some more. Long story short, I never ended up meeting the hr person to fill out paper work til 9:30. Then, the visual department, whom I'm suppossed to be working with had a meeting until 10:30, so I waited in the cafe type area they have at Urban. I really like that place, it is so sunny and warm, with lot's of yummy food, fish ponds, and it's beautifully decorated.
Finally I met up with my mentor, Kelly. She gave me a tour and introduced people who I had not met the last time I was in the office. She gave me a little tour. Then she gave me some work to do which was put together some "holiday inspiration" books, a book for visual managers for in store and make copies. And rearrange the library. None of it was bad at all. Ia ctually got done really quick, which made me want to purposely slow down on my next task but they still said wow that was quick! But it was fun.
The Holiday inspiration books were basically just books with images on them that the team pulled that they felt inspired by. I really couldnt think of anything more fun to do, I mean, I do that kind of thing on my own all the time- I am always ripping pages from magazines and making them into something. I can't believe they actually get to do some of that for a living!
Overall, it was a good day. A little tired, but it was a good experience. Oh! And a blizzard is coming so I don't have to go in tomorrow! Woo!
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Calm Before the Storm
DAY 12
Hmm! Superbowl Sunday. I don't ever recall enjoying a superbowl sunday, but today was nice. My parents and I went over to my aunt's house to hang out for a little bit. I love seeing my family.
I am growing more and more nervous about my first day! I feel like such a goofball, since everyone else already started theirs! Although, I'm sure the people who have started already are still a little bit nervous when they go into their walkabouts, at least in a good excited way... maybe. I think what I'm most nervous about is what I'm going to wear, as strange as that sounds. But in the field I'm in, that can be the most important asset! It also always, always makes me feel like I'm on top of the world when I'm dressed well and feel comfortable in what I'm wearing.
Well here's hoping tomorrow is a good last day off! :)
Hmm! Superbowl Sunday. I don't ever recall enjoying a superbowl sunday, but today was nice. My parents and I went over to my aunt's house to hang out for a little bit. I love seeing my family.
I am growing more and more nervous about my first day! I feel like such a goofball, since everyone else already started theirs! Although, I'm sure the people who have started already are still a little bit nervous when they go into their walkabouts, at least in a good excited way... maybe. I think what I'm most nervous about is what I'm going to wear, as strange as that sounds. But in the field I'm in, that can be the most important asset! It also always, always makes me feel like I'm on top of the world when I'm dressed well and feel comfortable in what I'm wearing.
Well here's hoping tomorrow is a good last day off! :)
Saturday, February 6, 2010
KOALA
DAY 11
I felt like a koala today. I woke up at 3pm. Fell back asleep at 5, and woke back up at 8pm. Kind of embarassing to write that, haha. Oh well, I guess my body needed it.
So, there's not much to report. I am getting more nervous for Walkabout to start. But, I am sooooo excited for us to move into our new house! I can't wait to just take a breather, and not live out of my suitcase. I haven't really felt at peace with my living situation since November. I feel like such a nomad.
I felt like a koala today. I woke up at 3pm. Fell back asleep at 5, and woke back up at 8pm. Kind of embarassing to write that, haha. Oh well, I guess my body needed it.
So, there's not much to report. I am getting more nervous for Walkabout to start. But, I am sooooo excited for us to move into our new house! I can't wait to just take a breather, and not live out of my suitcase. I haven't really felt at peace with my living situation since November. I feel like such a nomad.
Friday, February 5, 2010
To Know Me as Hardly Golden
DAY 10
Just to clarify, this is going to me ranting and venting the entire time.
Ugh. It is all really hitting me today. Walkabout has not really been a walk in the park so far. I don't mean to sound like a brat, but I am frustrated that I have not started my internship yet, and I have nothing to do all day. Just sit around and feel cold, lazy, and unproductive. I don't want to feel that way, I want to do something, but what is there to do?
I really miss my friends. It hasn't really hit me until today. I miss Brendan, and Moira, and Phoebe, and the old Tyler. But everyone is doing their own thing and changing so quickly. I really hate that people change. I miss having someone to talk to in person. Big changes are happening and I don't want to/can't talk to anyone here about it. And the one person that I feel like I am becoming good friends with, I never end up seeing due to some random unforseen circumstances. Then I always put the blame on myself, and feel horribly guilty, like a flakey person. All I want to do is have someone there, or some social support again. I even wish I could go to seminars! I really could care less about some people, I don't feel bad saying that, but some people in this senior class I like to see and talk to, even if they aren't one of my best friends. I'd like to know what they're up to. Just little things about people I am really starting to miss. Man, I had it easy this summer/beginning of the year. People were awesome and lovely, and I was having so much fun.
Another thing that is really stressing me out is college. I don't know what college I want to go to. I don't really know what I want to do. I should have applied for scholarships a long time ago, which is really coming back to bite me in the ass now. And not to make excuses, but I was so incredibly busy this school year. My schedule was absolutely jam packed with everything you could think of, to be honest, I felt like I have taken on a lot more than most high school students have this year, so things like applying for scholarships got overlooked. Now, I am so sick of people badgering me about my decision; all it really does is make me want to ignore the whole situation all together, just push it far away. Although, I am a smart cookie and know that doing so will do nothing to get to the real problem. I think I will have to take advantage of this millionth blizzard this week and do some research and make a pros and cons list of colleges and such. Sounds like some fun Friday night plans to me!
Also, the parent situation has been eating away at me this week too. I really don't know how to act anymore. I think my mom and I are both on edge and stressed out. Things that would have seemed funny before are "not funny" now. I find myself doing things I wouldn't normally do. Nothing crazy of course, just acting differently. I don't mean to but the anxiety of the change going on around is really getting to me, and it REALLY frustrates me when my mom told me that "wasn't an excuse". I would think that out of all people she would know how hard this is for me, and what I have been through recently.
Ugh, bottom line: This is just much harder on me emotionally than I had anticipated.
Well, I don't want to end this on a bad note soo... HAPPY SNOW DAY! :)
Just to clarify, this is going to me ranting and venting the entire time.
Ugh. It is all really hitting me today. Walkabout has not really been a walk in the park so far. I don't mean to sound like a brat, but I am frustrated that I have not started my internship yet, and I have nothing to do all day. Just sit around and feel cold, lazy, and unproductive. I don't want to feel that way, I want to do something, but what is there to do?
I really miss my friends. It hasn't really hit me until today. I miss Brendan, and Moira, and Phoebe, and the old Tyler. But everyone is doing their own thing and changing so quickly. I really hate that people change. I miss having someone to talk to in person. Big changes are happening and I don't want to/can't talk to anyone here about it. And the one person that I feel like I am becoming good friends with, I never end up seeing due to some random unforseen circumstances. Then I always put the blame on myself, and feel horribly guilty, like a flakey person. All I want to do is have someone there, or some social support again. I even wish I could go to seminars! I really could care less about some people, I don't feel bad saying that, but some people in this senior class I like to see and talk to, even if they aren't one of my best friends. I'd like to know what they're up to. Just little things about people I am really starting to miss. Man, I had it easy this summer/beginning of the year. People were awesome and lovely, and I was having so much fun.
Another thing that is really stressing me out is college. I don't know what college I want to go to. I don't really know what I want to do. I should have applied for scholarships a long time ago, which is really coming back to bite me in the ass now. And not to make excuses, but I was so incredibly busy this school year. My schedule was absolutely jam packed with everything you could think of, to be honest, I felt like I have taken on a lot more than most high school students have this year, so things like applying for scholarships got overlooked. Now, I am so sick of people badgering me about my decision; all it really does is make me want to ignore the whole situation all together, just push it far away. Although, I am a smart cookie and know that doing so will do nothing to get to the real problem. I think I will have to take advantage of this millionth blizzard this week and do some research and make a pros and cons list of colleges and such. Sounds like some fun Friday night plans to me!
Also, the parent situation has been eating away at me this week too. I really don't know how to act anymore. I think my mom and I are both on edge and stressed out. Things that would have seemed funny before are "not funny" now. I find myself doing things I wouldn't normally do. Nothing crazy of course, just acting differently. I don't mean to but the anxiety of the change going on around is really getting to me, and it REALLY frustrates me when my mom told me that "wasn't an excuse". I would think that out of all people she would know how hard this is for me, and what I have been through recently.
Ugh, bottom line: This is just much harder on me emotionally than I had anticipated.
Well, I don't want to end this on a bad note soo... HAPPY SNOW DAY! :)
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Take Our Hands Out of Control
DAY 9
Everyday is a blur.
Hmm, what happened today that is worth mentioning? Nothing really.
Oh, I didn't get into the Ohio State University Columbus campus. Which is fine I guess. Although, I really did plan on going to the Columbus campus. OSU is just so much cheaper than all of the other schools I applied to, which shouldn't really be a deciding factor, but at the same time, it matters. I guess everything happens for a reason. I don't even know what I want to do in college, so maybe it's good I only have two to pick from. And at least I did get into college. It just really frustrates me that I don't know what to do, or have any inkling of what I want to do. My mind is always changing at the speed of light. Taking the easy way out seems tempting.
Everyday is a blur.
Hmm, what happened today that is worth mentioning? Nothing really.
Oh, I didn't get into the Ohio State University Columbus campus. Which is fine I guess. Although, I really did plan on going to the Columbus campus. OSU is just so much cheaper than all of the other schools I applied to, which shouldn't really be a deciding factor, but at the same time, it matters. I guess everything happens for a reason. I don't even know what I want to do in college, so maybe it's good I only have two to pick from. And at least I did get into college. It just really frustrates me that I don't know what to do, or have any inkling of what I want to do. My mind is always changing at the speed of light. Taking the easy way out seems tempting.
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Where Is My Mind?
DAY 7
Ahh Tuesday. Tuesdays used to be my favorite day because I had off from work. haha. Well this tuesday was nice, I got out of the house for a little bit. I tend to get cabin fever easily at this house. I got to see one of my "best friends" (I only say that because people change, but sometimes maintain their title, but it wasn't bad.
We went to Starbucks. Then out to eat at this Chinese place called Hong Kong Jack's. It had one of those "Best Of..." signs outside so we thought it would be really good. But the atmosphere was really dark and creepy. We were the only people in the resturuant. The food was pretty nasty, and I am NOT picky about what I eat at all, and I would never go there again.
Then we went to the mall with some of her friends. I'm glad I didn't live here for my high school career. I can't imagine being a mall rat. Over the years, I have gained what I believe to be the very valuable quality of being blunt. So after we were done at the mall I asked them to just drop me off at my car (so I could go home and not be around them anymore haha). It's not that I hate them, I just think my tolerance for that kind of thing has gone down over the years.
Later that night I went out to see the movie When In Rome with my friend Tim. It was pretty funny, at least to me, I like chick flicks. And he seemed to enjoy himself too. I'm glad I found a friend who isn't in high school, or that I wasn't best friends with before I left for Ohio. It's nice to have someone with a new perspective on things and doesn't have the maturity level of a 14 year old. We actually get along really well and have a lot in common. I never thought I'd meet a straight guy who liked Lady Gaga! (Uh oh, knock on wood)!
DAY 8
I'm feeling guilty for not doing anything related to my Walkabout, or having not started the internship yet. But I have a feeling I will be grateful for this little bit of time off when the real hard work comes. I want to practice the train schedule this week. And maybe go shopping for something to wear to work. Or maybe I can go shopping in my closet!
One thing I was really excited about for this Walkabout was wearing all of my cute clothes that seemed just a little too dressy for school. I used to wear REALLY awesome garb in junior year, but I kind of started to slack this year. I just didn't have time or the want to wear 5 inch heels every other day. I probably won't be able to run errands in them every other day either (but hey, you never know, I believe that walking/freakishly running in high heels is one of my major talents), but at least I will be able to wear the cuter items more often. And let them see the light of day again. I know you missed the sun, my 4.5 inch zipper heels. :)
Today I went to Planet Smoothie with two friends I haven't seen in 4 years. It was pretty fun! I like catching up, I wish we had more time to do it though, because I have a feeling we could go on and on.
I really need to get a part time job once we move. Or some way of making money. I really want to go to Bonnaroo this year! I love making plans waaay ahead! Haha. I will get all psyched about it, and then when the time comes, make up some excuse about why it didn't happen. But I really plan on following through with this idea. I think it would be so awesome, and a nice little end to senior year. Too bad that's not very close.
Ahh Tuesday. Tuesdays used to be my favorite day because I had off from work. haha. Well this tuesday was nice, I got out of the house for a little bit. I tend to get cabin fever easily at this house. I got to see one of my "best friends" (I only say that because people change, but sometimes maintain their title, but it wasn't bad.
We went to Starbucks. Then out to eat at this Chinese place called Hong Kong Jack's. It had one of those "Best Of..." signs outside so we thought it would be really good. But the atmosphere was really dark and creepy. We were the only people in the resturuant. The food was pretty nasty, and I am NOT picky about what I eat at all, and I would never go there again.
Then we went to the mall with some of her friends. I'm glad I didn't live here for my high school career. I can't imagine being a mall rat. Over the years, I have gained what I believe to be the very valuable quality of being blunt. So after we were done at the mall I asked them to just drop me off at my car (so I could go home and not be around them anymore haha). It's not that I hate them, I just think my tolerance for that kind of thing has gone down over the years.
Later that night I went out to see the movie When In Rome with my friend Tim. It was pretty funny, at least to me, I like chick flicks. And he seemed to enjoy himself too. I'm glad I found a friend who isn't in high school, or that I wasn't best friends with before I left for Ohio. It's nice to have someone with a new perspective on things and doesn't have the maturity level of a 14 year old. We actually get along really well and have a lot in common. I never thought I'd meet a straight guy who liked Lady Gaga! (Uh oh, knock on wood)!
DAY 8
I'm feeling guilty for not doing anything related to my Walkabout, or having not started the internship yet. But I have a feeling I will be grateful for this little bit of time off when the real hard work comes. I want to practice the train schedule this week. And maybe go shopping for something to wear to work. Or maybe I can go shopping in my closet!
One thing I was really excited about for this Walkabout was wearing all of my cute clothes that seemed just a little too dressy for school. I used to wear REALLY awesome garb in junior year, but I kind of started to slack this year. I just didn't have time or the want to wear 5 inch heels every other day. I probably won't be able to run errands in them every other day either (but hey, you never know, I believe that walking/freakishly running in high heels is one of my major talents), but at least I will be able to wear the cuter items more often. And let them see the light of day again. I know you missed the sun, my 4.5 inch zipper heels. :)
Today I went to Planet Smoothie with two friends I haven't seen in 4 years. It was pretty fun! I like catching up, I wish we had more time to do it though, because I have a feeling we could go on and on.
I really need to get a part time job once we move. Or some way of making money. I really want to go to Bonnaroo this year! I love making plans waaay ahead! Haha. I will get all psyched about it, and then when the time comes, make up some excuse about why it didn't happen. But I really plan on following through with this idea. I think it would be so awesome, and a nice little end to senior year. Too bad that's not very close.
Monday, February 1, 2010
Man, everyone's chewin' the apple you got in your eye
DAY 6
Today was such a waste of a day in my opinion. I woke up so late today, and ended up falling back asleep two hours after. I guess I really needed to catch up on my sleep after this long and eventful weekend. But I still wish I could go do something.
Pennsylvania seems like it is a whole world away from Ohio. I used to think that Pennsylvania was so much better than Ohio when I first moved to Worthington, but now I think the exact opposite. Why is "the grass is always greener on the other side" the story of my life?! Seriously! Everything in Pennsylvania just seems so foreign now. There are about 10 or more farms from my house to couple miles down the road. I think I've seen one farm around Worthington. It takes forever to get anywhere around here, if there is even anywhere to go. There always seemed to be something to do in Worthington/Columbus, and always a way to get there. It's strange to think that there is more at my fingertips than there is in Pennsylvania. Maybe I just need to get used to it more. Everything takes time.
I am excited to start my Walkabout already. I'm excitedly nervous, but I'm thinking it will help get my mind off of things, and see this experience more in a positive light. Not that this experience has been total hell, but my mind just keeps on going and going, full of all these different thoughts, full of things to occupy my time, but things I know I shouldn't be thinking (like how I really wish I could just go back in time). Things like this aren't possible and really stop me from fully experiencing this how I should.
Something else that has been on my mind is that I would like to try to get a job, or some way to get a little bit of money while on Walkabout. This will probably be difficult since I will be so tired from my full time job, but I think a little spending money would be nice during my New York Walkabout :) :)
Oi Vei.
Today was such a waste of a day in my opinion. I woke up so late today, and ended up falling back asleep two hours after. I guess I really needed to catch up on my sleep after this long and eventful weekend. But I still wish I could go do something.
Pennsylvania seems like it is a whole world away from Ohio. I used to think that Pennsylvania was so much better than Ohio when I first moved to Worthington, but now I think the exact opposite. Why is "the grass is always greener on the other side" the story of my life?! Seriously! Everything in Pennsylvania just seems so foreign now. There are about 10 or more farms from my house to couple miles down the road. I think I've seen one farm around Worthington. It takes forever to get anywhere around here, if there is even anywhere to go. There always seemed to be something to do in Worthington/Columbus, and always a way to get there. It's strange to think that there is more at my fingertips than there is in Pennsylvania. Maybe I just need to get used to it more. Everything takes time.
I am excited to start my Walkabout already. I'm excitedly nervous, but I'm thinking it will help get my mind off of things, and see this experience more in a positive light. Not that this experience has been total hell, but my mind just keeps on going and going, full of all these different thoughts, full of things to occupy my time, but things I know I shouldn't be thinking (like how I really wish I could just go back in time). Things like this aren't possible and really stop me from fully experiencing this how I should.
Something else that has been on my mind is that I would like to try to get a job, or some way to get a little bit of money while on Walkabout. This will probably be difficult since I will be so tired from my full time job, but I think a little spending money would be nice during my New York Walkabout :) :)
Oi Vei.
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